I met my husband while I was working there. I got pregnant within 6 months of meeting him. I was 19 years old then. I had my second child 2 years later. My husband worked away from home so I felt overwhelmed, lost and alone. My family couldn’t understand why I was so unhappy. Shortly after the birth of my second child I suffered severe depression. I had episodes of panic that were so bad I felt frozen on the spot. At times I couldn’t move with fear.
One day I left my two children with my mother who lived about 20 miles away. I went home and took an overdose of pills that my doctor had prescribed for my depression. I didn’t want to kill myself but I couldn’t see how I could be of any use to anyone. I felt so low, so helpless and useless to my 2 children. My neighbour found me shortly after I took the overdose, as I was supposed to go shopping with her. I spent a few days in hospital.
My husband was saddened, shocked and annoyed. He told me I needed to pull myself together for the sake of the children. I went for counselling and started a new regime of medication. The medication seemed to help a little but I felt drowsy and dopey most of the time. I had also gained a lot of weight over the past few years which didn’t help with my self esteem.
I felt my life was falling apart. It all came to a head one day when I was taking the baby’s pushchair out of the car; I slipped on the icy footpath and broke my leg in two places. I was back in the hospital once again. I returned home with a cast on my leg. I really had a problem now. I couldn’t drive, I couldn’t walk without crutches. My husband had to take time off from work to look after me and the children. It was a time of discomfort, helplessness, hopelessness and physical and emotional pain.
It was also a time of reflection for me. I couldn’t run away from my issues. I learned how to ask for help from family, friends and neighbours. I had time to reflect and think about where some of my problems may have originated. I remembered clearly being criticised at school for my lack of abilities. I wasn’t good at sport. I wasn’t good at music. I wasn’t good at maths, in fact I couldn’t remember what I was good at. I liked P.E. but I wasn’t good at it.
I felt too fat, too tall and too awkward, so rather than the embarrassment of trying I would pretend I was sick so I didn’t have to participate. I never seemed to fit in anywhere or with anyone. I believed my husband loved me but I felt he had difficulty at times coping with my moods and erratic behaviour. All of this went round and around in my head.
I spent a lot of time sitting down so I had a lot of time on my hands. I never really learned how to use a computer so I started practising on my husband’s computer. One day I tapped in ‘anxiety and depression’. This site came up on the screen. I was amazed. It was a training centre for Bio-Energy therapy, Sound Healing therapy, and more. I read all I could on this Bio-Energy therapy. It all made so much sense to me. I realised then that there wasn’t actually anything wrong with me. My reaction to life’s experiences had been affecting me all my life. It wasn’t really me – the person I am that was the problem.
I had never really learned coping skills for life’s events and traumas and I had never learned to accept myself as I am. I decided in the midst of all the chaos that was happening inside and around me that I was going to attend for this bio-energy therapy. I booked in for 5 sessions. My husband who was at his wits end at this stage agreed to take me to the bio-energy therapy centre. I wasn’t promised any miraculous changes by the therapist but bit by bit I learned to let go of old belief systems and old conditioning.
The bio-energy therapist explained that no therapy would change what has happened in my life but by decreasing the intensity of some traumatic events in my life, I may be able to move on with my life and learn new coping mechanisms. When all the layers of conditioning were peeled away and discarded I found the being that is me that had been buried for years. I have learned that I can accept myself, and for me that is a massive achievement.
Kevin - Durham, England
I have been feeling stressed for years. As an electrician I would be on call almost 24/7 and between electrical breakdowns and staff shortages my home life was nonexistent. My wife of 30 years had enough of my lifestyle so she packed up and left me 12 months ago.Read more ...
Matilo - Miri, Malaysia
Thank you all at the bio-energy healing course for an amazing course. I could not believe it when I actually logged in to the course and was presented with 90 video lectures. Furthermore all videos were such high quality and well tutored that it was so easy to follow and learn from them. It was like going back to schoolRead more ...